Last night was the first night back home after 3 months in a sober house program and it feels great to be back. The last two months have been rough in the trifling house I lived in. While I am grateful for the program for being there, the particular house I lived for the last two of the three months really needs an overhaul. One guy in particular (young buck) I feel has lots of resentments and projects them upon others. To him, the world revolves around him and if you aren’t operating the way he likes, you are in his way. Lots of OCD issues as well. Bottom line is that he was a stressful, angry person to be around who never had one normal, social conversation with me. So it is wonderful to be clear of that debris and back to my own hovel

I am excited to be back, yet nervous. Nervous because it is around this time when my traditional relapses occurred. Now, I hope, things will be different and my awareness of my body much more acute. I do have some sober friends which I didn’t have in the past. I have a sponsor. I have a home group and various other meetings I go to. So, I feel I have the resources necessary to give me a better shot at sustaining sobriety and more importantly–serenity in the coming days, weeks, months, and life.

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